Emptyness
It’s only been 2 days since Adam and I actually split (a week since I moved out, which basically ended it) but I’m starting to feel the single loneliness creep in. I’ve only ever had 2 serious boyfriends but I HATE being single, it makes me feel so alone.
3 years is a long time and I’ve become so used to always knowing that I’d have that someone there to speak to, even when I’m being annoying; that hug when I need it and that best friend. Now that I don’t have that I’m like “oh…bugger” and now I’m starting to feel a bit sad. I’ve been rarely eating, hardly sleeping (Buddy’s not helping that though) and I keep being sick in the stomach. I don’t like it.
I feel lost, I don’t know what to do career wise and I’m so so scared of the thought of having to go out and be with people again. More scared than thought of being alone.
BAH! I hate emotions, I wish we could all just be emotionless blobs that just exist Dx
